To begin at the beginning...

They say a new day is a new beginning, but it's certainly hard to think that when you wake up with crumbs from last night's Kit Kat binge still round your mouth. There's 7 days until I move into my new house for the new university year, and around 4 weeks until my course starts again. Hopefully this is enough time to shift some serious weight.

I feel like I should introduce myself properly.

 - My name is Zarah
- I'm 19, and a French and English student in England. 

- At the beginning of August I weighed 130 lbs, as of yesterday I weigh 121. 

- I like fashion, France, photography, tea, playing guitar, sunshine and popping bubble wrap. 

- I think I've had issues with food since I was about 14. I would say I was bulimic, but purging has been something that I've never been able to do (it never stopped me trying, though.) 

- I have a lovely boyfriend who knows I used to have food issues, but has no idea they're still ongoing. 

- I'm half Malaysian, but people normally assume I'm Indian. This makes things very awkward as I live in a predominantly Sikh area, and frequently have older ladies come up to me and start chatting away in Punjabi while I nod and smile and have no idea what is going on. 

- I spent 3 weeks in France for my course earlier this summer, and spent almost every second of it jealously looking at all the beautiful thin French girls and hating my own body. There's only one year left until my year abroad, and I'm determined not to let this happen again. Next time, I will be one of the gorgeous thin girls. That's my promise to myself.